Card reading for 1/14/20. Things are in a state of transition... with the 2 of Pentacles we were doing a lot and we were handling it alright too. But perhaps we were running on fumes there for a minute. The 4 of Cups comes in and shows us that it's time to slow down, make some choices and that is ok. When I see the 4 of Cups I am reminded to 'check myself before I wreck myself,' that things aren't as dramatically terrible as they seem. This card only looks sinister, but in fact this card is speaking of that little shadow in you that is always discontented when in fact, maybe things are just a little stagnant. Sometimes even all is well. This is trauma, my friends, the anxiety that arises when we are still.... resulting in the feeling that we must busy ourselves lest we face the monster and die. But... It's January! January slows down. I have never liked January for this reason and it is my most challenging month of the year. The cosmos are really testing our shadows this month too so theres that. The 4 of Cups also reminds us when things start to turn dark, even if just in our minds, we must go back to a state of gratitude. Sure, changes need to be made because life is change, but the 4 of Cups wants to stir up drama by making sweeping changes. The Knight of Wands tells me changes are on their way, sooner than we think, but we must resist the impulsivity within that wants it now. For now I might suggest you sit with your life and really examine what it is that scares you. For me as a creative small business, it's always money. If I'm not busy, I'm not making money and I start thinking crazy thoughts like I'm done for and I'll never make money again. I start thinking about throwing it all away and just being a regular person because sometimes in all God's honest truth, I would trade the creativity for financial and emotional stability many many days. Not all days, but some days. It is what it is...and I believe our reading today is a 'hang in there, be rational' kind of thing. Not a very inspiring reading today, but sometimes it's what we get. In the meantime, sit with the anxiety and try to understand its root, if that's what you are feeling.
Namaste 💜
