Card reading for 12/31/19. My last reading of the decade! Wow, these cards. Fresh starts all around, peace, stability, harmony, celebrations. 2020 is a 4 year and the only numbered card we received is a 4. 4s are stable. 4s are solid foundations. I've been meditating quite a lot on the Saturn/Pluto conjunction in Capricorn happening in just over a week now. There is a real sense of dread surrounding this conjunction and my anxiety keeps expecting Tower Tower Tower. But it never shows. Capricorn energy is intimidating, that's kind of its thing, and its especially intimidating if you have ever experienced low self-esteem or low self-worth. Right now there is a LOT of this Capricorn energy and perhaps you can feel the issue of worth coming to a head. Maybe you're feeling a bit squished or suffocated, I know I certainly am. The guilty conscience is bery loud right now. Do you know you are good and yet something is always telling you you are no good? Maybe even evil? I believe many lightworkers were born with the guilty conscience as one of main obstacles to work through in this lifetime. This guilt is our empathy for the planet talking. This guilt is the mirror in us reflecting the collective consciousness. People are skeptical of our intentions because of their own issues to work through. Some of the kindest, most generous, and high vibrational people I have ever encountered feel this same sense of anxiety and guilt, as though they are not enough or as though everything they do is wrong or bad. We must keep fighting this voice by continuing to follow the sound of our hearts. We feel this guilt because we are a force for change and this feeling most certainly acts as a catalyst for healing and the work we must do. But it is time to let go of some of the weight and I believe that is what 2020 offers. We deserve to be happy. We deserve to prosper. We deserve to feel safe and strong. We deserve to relax! This conjunction very much wants us to examine not only our sense of power, but also karma. Let us not bring the past with us into this new cycle. Let it go. Forgive and know you are forgiven.
From my heart I wish you infinite blessings for a new decade!
Namaste 🙏
