For those familiar with numerology, the 11/11 is an auspicious number, symbolizing a call to your higher purpose and new gateways opening up. (Actually, there are many meanings but for the sake of this blog....try Googling it) The challenge is recognize these gateways and to go through them, which because its unfamiliar, can be really scary. This may sound hokey or even nutty to some, but I have been followed by this number for years now. I literally see it everywhere I go and every single day. It shows up around certain people and certain circumstances and opportunities, all of which, have taught and continue to teach me so much. It used to drive me crazy trying to understand it, but I've learned to just take it for whatever it is that day, because its meaning is always different. However, it is never meaningless. And it happens too often for me to consider it coincidence (not that I believe in coincidence, anyway.) To me, when I see it, it's like time stops and a voice says 'observe this, right now' and it's up to me to figure out the meaning. All i can do is say 'ok' and listen.
The 11/11 energy of today combined with the energy of the Scorpio new moon (which also symbolizes new beginnings), I can't help but ponder those who have come before me and sacrificed so much for me to live such a free, and well, ponderous life! I'm beyond grateful and it brings tears to my eyes that there are human beings out there who put their lives on the line so selflessly. I feel this gratitude deeply, as some of these people, including my brother, are some of the closest people to my heart.
But I am also reminded today, on 11/11, that it is time for something new. I am reminded that we all have a mission to serve here on this planet and each is of no less importance. I think the message I get for today is to yes, of course, be grateful for our history. Be grateful but also, understand it. Own up to the past and the thinking that got us here. Was it fear? Or was it love? Own our individual pasts but also our collective past. Be grateful for where we've been BUT for crying out loud, learn from it. Quit recycling it. Quit repeating it. Get off the wheel of Karma and do something new. No one is stuck or powerless, but you do have to do something different in order to get a different result. This is just a fact. Do you want a different result? That's the question, really.
I walked a new path with Diggle today at 11:11 as a symbol of my continued dedication to creating a better life for myself and my loved ones, but also to symbolize my dedication to the planet I love so much and will someday leave behind. For me, I cannot spend time in nature and feel separate from it. I can't look at my puppy and believe he has any less of a right to live than I do. I am working on this in my life, consciously making changes to live a more compassionate and aligned life. I feel the pain of the planet and animals and I know the only way to feel less of it, is to cause less of it. You can see this in my diet and how I treat people, in my art and in my words. Yes, it is work. Yes, it can be scary, but with practice it becomes less so. Some days I 'mess up,' but instead of beating myself up, I am compassionate with myself. That's the hardest thing of all. The point is, though, slowly, things DO change. Beauty and hope and peace are possible and everywhere. People like me are here on this planet to keep hope alive and remind the ones we love, who lose sight of it, that good is possible. And in everything. And everyone.
The wind is really strong today and the air is funny, with a warm and out-of-place way about it. I always imagine the wind as talking to me. I had planned to go on a new trail today, but I didn't know (or care) which one, I just wanted to be outside and be with Diggle on my day off. Turns out, the wind (and Diggle) had a plan for me and it blew my hair so hard I had to turn my whole body around to see again and there it was; a new pathway I had never noticed. So I followed the trees and listened to the birds, and just like Snow White, I met lots of interesting and friendly characters along the way and it was good. In the end, as it turned out, the path was quite safe.....because here i am a little bit more new with something a little bit more new to say. What will you do new today?
Happy Wednesday :)
Stephanie